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  Poking Baylee quickly in the ribs with my elbow, “I so want him.” Why I said that I don’t know perhaps I had a feeling about him.

  “Oooh yes, he is really cute! If you get sick of him, give him to me, I’ll have him” she told me.

  Causing me to groan inwardly. She always got the guys she was so flirty, confident, and outgoing where I was shy, self-conscious, with no confidence with guys in part due to my past and fear. Until now. When he walked in. Sighing! I didn’t think I would ever feel like this over anyone again.

  “I don’t think I’ll ever get sick of him. I’m in love already I think.” I countered back.

  My eyes followed him while he casually walked over to the bar. He ordered a bourbon on ice as he rested his large arms and big strong hands on the bar. While he waited for his drink, I saw his eyes wandering around the bar. Too late, I soon realized they’d settled on me staring unashamedly at him. Blushing, I quickly looked away so embarrassed that I had been caught staring at him. Next thing I knew he was at my side.

  “Hello little lady, what’s your name?” he asked.

  “Humph! I am not a little lady,” I mean I know I’m short, but there’s no need for people to rub it in.

  “Well, feisty aren’t you? I like that in my women. I’m Billy Ray, you gonna tell me your name?

  Just then his drink arrived, lifting his eyebrows at me, picking his drink up “Cheers.”

  Raising my glass, which I was nursing, up, clinking it on his glass, “Cheers Billy Ray, I’m Belle.”

  Taking a sip of his drink, saying to me “Pretty name for a pretty lady.”

  Blushing I replied back “Thank you, I bet you say that to all the girls though” I didn’t normally take compliments easily. Along with my father and an ass of a boyfriend along the way, I only knew put downs and threats.

  “Would the pretty Belle like to dance” he asked as he raised his eyebrow in hope at me.

  Smiling back at his cheeky face, which I couldn’t resist for some reason, “I’d love to thanks Billy Ray.”

  Dancing right in the middle of the crowded dance floor. I was surprised to see he was a good dancer, even better than me if the truth be known. Soon he grabbed me pulling me close. Dancing close with my cheek resting on his nice warm hard chest making me feel comfortable, safe, at home with him. While he rested his cheek on the top of my head, he whispered in my ear, “I like you Belle, do you think you would like to see me again?”

  Gasping, I pulled away to stare up at him. That was fast. Maybe way too fast. If I agreed, was I doing the right thing here? I wasn’t about to make another big mistake if I said yes to him? I’d been so hurt so many times in the past. Well it seemed so right for some reason. Something about him made this feel right. I had nothing to lose also he was twenty five only a couple of years older than me so he was perfect. Well not only that, it was great start but I was still a little leery.

  “Sure I’d love to, if you’re sure.” I was hoping I wasn’t sounding too keen here. Unable to believe that someone would be interested in me and want to see me again and yes, wondering if I had lost my senses, this gorgeous man wanted to see me again. Me, damaged goods and full of doubt. He only saw me as me and nothing else after only a few hours, wow!

  “Yes I’m sure, my pretty Belle,” he smiled down at me.

  When we had finished one more dance, he turned to me saying, “Sorry Belle, I‘m going to have to go now. I was just popping in for a quick drink. I have to get up early in the morning. I’m a farmhand on my daddy’s farm. I won’t be getting much sleep now as it is. Give me your number, then I can call you later to arrange a date for tomorrow night.”

  “Sure I understand, thanks, for a great night, Billy Ray” I said sadly. “I’d definitely love to see you again” as we put each other’s cell numbers on our cells.

  Bending down, he gave me a quick hard kiss on the lips. He bid me goodbye and left. I was in shock, numb and stunned, not believing what had just happened. It felt like it was all a dream. I put my fingers on my tingling lips where he had just kissed me. I could feel his lips there still. I still couldn’t believe what had just happened. It all felt like a little unreal. It was still hard to believe that I would soon be seeing him again. Me. Baylee saw all of this take place and she was happy for me but I could tell she was a little envious.

  I was so excited when the next night came. I got dressed in my best red dress, however; I was left there sitting and waiting impatiently for what seemed like hours but was merely minutes. I was finally ready for him to come pick me up. More than ready. I checked twice then three then four times making certain my hair and makeup were still holding up. He finally arrived looking so handsome in a pair of jeans, blue shirt with the top few buttons undone. He had a sneaky tuft of chest curl peeking out the top making me want to swoon. He simply looked delicious. And he was picking me up for a date. And Baylee was green with envy.

  When I heard the doorbell ring, I rushed almost tripping into the front door. Billy Ray made me giggle when he wolf whistled at me as I opened the door to him. After some small talk. We went to the local steak restaurant nearby. We had a great night chatting and laughing. Everything was perfect: the meal, the service and the atmosphere. He sure knew lots of people as he was saying his fair share of “hellos” to fellow diners. But his main focus was me. And that made me feel special. He managed to awaken a wildfire in me in the special way he looked at me. When he spoke the tone of his voice made my toes curl. His intense direct look as he spoke to me. He was so attentive towards me. I can’t say it enough.

  As the evening wore on I could feel the spark that had been lost forever was being reignited by him. I thought I would never feel this happy again. I could soon feel the cold steel imprisoning my heart loosening. The same cold steel, that had over the years been protecting me, slowly began to melt away. We were spending more time together along with having fun, laughing every often and being happy enjoying ourselves as a new couple. Soon my fears were dissipating allowing me to start feeling happiness once again. Loving can hurt sometimes. Sometimes that hurt can last a long time. This much I had learnt over the years. But it was all I knew. Billy Ray was starting to change that for me, he relaxed me making me feel so at ease, so much so that I could truly enjoy his company. And how…

  We had been going out for a few months, tonight was just a date night like every other. Billy Ray picked me up in his red Ford pickup, ever the gentleman always rushing ahead to open the door for me to get in. We decided to go to the movies followed by dinner. We didn’t know what we felt like so we decided to wait until after the movie. Arriving at the theatre we decided on a romantic comedy. Sitting in the back row holding hands in the darkened theatre, it felt so right being here with Billy Ray. Every now and again he’d make me smile when he’d bring up my right hand to his mouth gently kissing the back of my hand. I felt so comfortable, ready to turn a corner. I smiled laying my head on his shoulder. He looked down at me grinning then wrapping his arm around me. Making me feel safe and secure in his arms.

  I’m really beginning to fall for Billy Ray, big time. Every day he managed to prove his love for me even more. He would send me cute messages on my cell. He’d leave notes on the kitchen table as he left early in the morning. We could talked on the phone every evening we weren’t together. He began surprising me every so often with little unexpected gifts. Flowers, chocolates or some other little mementoes. I was beginning to feel he was the one. I felt safe enough to commit to him should he ever ask.

  All too soon our movie finished. When the lights came on blinding us after the darkness of the theatre it had all but swallowed us. He bent down kissing me on the top of my head. “Come on baby time to go. I’ve been thinking how about we grab some takeout to take back to my place? Have a romantic dinner in front of the fire?”

  I grinned up at Billy Ray kissing him on the chin. “Sounds like a lovely romantic idea baby. Better than some fancy restaurant. I love that idea” while I stood up to leav
e.

  We wandered slowly hand in hand out of the theatre. We went in search of some takeout places. Billy Ray decided on some sub sandwiches with salads. While we stood there waiting. He was holding me tightly in his arms, swaying me backwards and forward. We brought a nice bottle of red wine to go with our meal. Getting back in his pickup, we headed back to his place.

  When we arrived back at his place we quickly rushed inside. He grabbed the blanket flung over the back of the couch placing it on the floor in front of the fireplace. Since the fireplace was all ready to go, he just had to light it which threw romantic shadows around the room from the flames.

  “Hang on a sec baby. I’ll just go grab some plates and glasses to go with our dinner,” he told me smiling.

  “Can I do anything to help babe?”

  “No, no just stay there make yourself comfortable” he grinned.

  I sat down cross legged on the rug. Staring dreamily at the crackling flames. While I waited for Billy Ray to return. He returned with plates, cutlery and two wine glasses. After setting everything down on the rug, he went back into the kitchen. He really made me smile when the sweetheart returned with our bottle of wine and carrying a lit candle in a glass jar.

  “How romantic babe, this is better than any fancy restaurant.” I leant over kissing him on the cheek which made him break out in a big broad grin.

  “Thanks babe! Love you ya know” he said quietly.

  I gasped as he finally said the big L word to me. Shocked but happy, I grabbed him round the face planting a big kiss on his mouth. “I think I love you too baby” I told him in return. I sat back down smiling to myself. I felt like my heart had burst open like a blossoming flower with his declaration of love.

  We had a fun evening enjoying our dinner and wine. We talked about everything but nothing in particular. We sat there making fun of some of the funny parts in the movie making us giggle and laughing out loud along with a few stolen kisses in between. At times he would run his fingers gently up and down my legs making me giggle since it tickled me so. He made me shiver as it sent tingles through me, feeling so gentle and nice.

  I stopped giggling as I began looking deep into his dark eyes that had turned all serious. I quickly drank the last of my wine with all kinds’ of nervousness deep in my stomach. Looking at my now empty glass, I made to get up to take our plates out to the kitchen.

  Billy Ray put his arm out to stop me “Just leave them baby” he suddenly said to me in a husky voice. “Come sit here” patting his lap.

  I went over straddling his lap before sitting down. While looking into his deep dark brown eyes, I felt I should maybe be scared but I wasn’t. I felt so happy especially anytime he grabbed me, holding me tight and close. He leaned back to grab hold of my face. His sudden change in mood made me feel worried with the now serious expression on his face. I felt my heart quicken as I began thinking he was going to break up with me or something worse.

  He came close to my face “Baby don’t look so worried. I love you! I just” pausing looking down while he cleared his throat. Looking back up at me, “We’ve been going out for quite a few months now. I’ve held myself back due to your bad experiences in the past. I was wondering if you felt ready to be with me yet. Would you stay the night with me? I don’t want to force you. You’re free to say no. I’ll wait for however long it takes you. You know that cos I love you so much.”

  I sighed with relief. Not at all what I expected but this I wanted. I didn’t have to think about it for a long time. “Okay! I think I trust you enough now, I’m ready for this” running my fingers along his cheek. “I know you well enough now. Please be gentle and slow with me okay just in case?”

  Kissing me on the tip of the nose “Of course baby. No pressure like I said. Thank you so much for trusting me.” He picked me up carrying me in his arms down to his bedroom.

  Here it was finally, after a couple of months of our being together, here was the moment. His intense loving patience had helped mend then fix me. I finally felt free of fear, full of trust enough to feel I was able to spend the night with my Billy Ray at last. My first night with a man, not any man, my man!

  He had helped me get over all the hurt from my past with all his loving and gentleness. With his constant reassuring along with building up my confidence, Billy Ray finally gave me back my self-esteem along with my self-worth. He was always punishing himself by always holding back, making sure to never rush me and never asking if I was ready yet. He had waited so patiently until I was ready. I finally felt like I was home, safe and cherished when I was with him. I was finally feeling I was able to trust someone again. I was ready.

  God, being with him that night. It was a fucking like none other I had ever felt or experienced before. He sure knew all the right buttons to push on a girl. Placing me gently down on the bed he started kissing me gently on the lips before slowly kissing down my chest until he reached the top button of my blouse. Lifting his head he undid my top button kissing down until he reached the next button repeating the process until he reached the top of my jeans. Pulling my blouse out of my jeans before undoing the button then slowly unzipping them. Coming up off me causing me to pout at him. Grinning he pulled my vans off throwing them on the floor behind him before tugging my jeans off leaving me there feeling abit exposed and vulnerable.

  “You look so beautiful laying there baby” he whispered.

  Kissing me on the tummy he quickly began pulling my panties off. He was a man on a mission. He began moving down slowly then quicker to tenderly lick and tease my throbbing clit. He knew how to get me dripping wet in no time. Leaving me moaning and clutching the sheets tightly in my grip, I arched my back in ecstasy. This was so much better than anything I had experienced before. With a deep kiss and a flick of my clit, he made me explode on the spot. Was that the end of it? No, he was just getting started and had to keep going. He began kissing me deeply but on my lips between my legs. At the same time he was rolling my nipples between his fingers sending the sweetest sensations rippling through me. He knew what he was doing to me too as I felt him smiling against me. He knew I was his.

  He broke away from me and kissed my mouth. He then started kissing down my chest before latching on licking and sucking on my left breast. His other hand started tickling gently down my body to find my clit. Soon he was sliding down to my soaking wet pussy inserting his finger causing me to arch and groan loudly like I never had before. He began kissing slowly across my chest to give my other breast some much needed attention. While he inserted another finger in me, he caressed that sweet spot making me gasp. I grabbed hold of his hair while he was still suckling pleasurably.

  “Ow” he said as I was obviously pulling too tightly on his hair in my passion.

  “Sorry! See what you do to me” I told him, letting go of his hair.

  He came off my breast slowly kissing down my stomach. Suddenly lifting himself up off me before thrusting his hot hard throbbing cock deep in me, thrusting so deep and hard into my ready and waiting, wanting pussy. I could soon feel the ripples start within me signaling another impending orgasm. I came hard and fast once again. I was gripping tightly onto his pulsating cock like there was no tomorrow. He came hard and fast before collapsing breathless on top of me. I threw my arms around him hugging him tightly to me. Wow just wow.

  Finally I was able to see those fireworks I had heard so much about. One’s other people experience at times like this. Here I was thinking it was just a myth. I had never had the pleasure of experiencing anything like it before. Now I finally knew it to be true.

  Finally coming down from my orgasmic high, we held each other close. He stared into my eyes running his hands gently through my hair. He was making me know and feel I was definitely loved. He had my heart bursting open, free from its steel cage. It had been imprisoned far too long in. He was making it kick back into life again. I felt so incredibly loved and cherished. One feeling I had long forgotten until now. It was like he had set an incredible fire in
me, awakening a desire hidden deep in me, so deep I felt like my heart would burst into a million pieces.

  Things were moving so fast. Things were really good. We were deeply in love. It felt like the whole world didn’t matter when we were together. Every day our love showed us new and exciting things I never thought possible. I have to admit, I did resist a little at the beginning but as time passed and my trust in Billy Ray strengthened, all seemed possible.